AAAH, guys, can you believe we are in NOVEMBER? This year is almost over and it has been a BLUR! This month I am sharing with you a few secrets. Why? Because I don’t feel like writing about our homeschool in this month’s recap. Because I have taken very few pictures of anything fun. Because we have had a month where it feels like we have had fewer school days than normal. Because sometimes I just need to let the secrets out, and this is one of those months.
Secret #1: I Don’t Always LIKE Homeschooling
I shared in my blogs Facebook group a few weeks ago, (are you a member? If not, you should be!) that sometimes homeschooling stinks. And that has been SO true for us this month. Between sickness, and therapies for my daughter’s foot, and work, and life, we have missed WAY too many days of school.
Sometimes I think it’d be easier to just put them IN school. Do I love homeschooling? Yes! Do I think it’s what’s best for my kids? Yes! But do I always LIKE waking up knowing it’s on my to-do list? No.
Secret #2: I Fear Failure
Do you ever wonder if what you are doing is the right thing to do? I do. Everyday. When my 5 years old refuses to learn the last 6 letters of the alphabet-I feel like I failed. When I realize my 4th grader still hasn’t mastered her multiplication facts-FAILURE. When I can’t help my 6th grader with math? Again… why I am I doing this? And then there are those days where your kids act like unsocialized homeschoolers and yea failure needs to be stamped on my forehead.
Secret #3: I Don’t Have ALL the Answers
When you put yourself out there as a homeschool blogger people ask you for advice, a lot. When you start a homeschool group and tell others to let you know if they need help, you are taken up on that offer. Often.
But, I don’t have ALL the answers. Neither does your homeschool group leader or the other bloggers you read. We are just moms. Like you. Trying to do our best, but feeling like a chicken with our head cut off most of the time.
So.. there you have it. Real life homeschooling, from a real life homeschool mom. I fail. I fear. I question. I sometimes dislike homeschooling.
But, I wake up every morning and do it anyway. Because on the other side, there will be an empty and quiet house, and I will miss it. So, for now, I am going to enjoy our homeschool journey. Most days. And on the days where I want to throw in the towel, I will remember that there a few thousand homeschool mommas out there encouraging me to press on!
PS: Want to see pictures of our real life homeschool? Follow me on Instagram where I attempt to share a peek into our real life homeschool every day!