Our oldest homeschoolers end up being our guinea pigs. They end up being the ones we push and learn from. And sometimes we just need to tell them we are sorry.
Throughout the years I have talked to many a veteran homeschool mom. They all tell me they would have done this homeschool thing differently starting out. Pushed less. Played more. Worried less. Enjoyed the time more. And now, a few years into this homeschooling journey and I agree with this wholeheartedly.
I look at my son’s homeschool journey and realize how different it is going to look from my oldest. I think back to our first days of homeschooling and cringe at some of the memories. Were there good days? Yes, of course, we had a lot of fun! But, would I change things? Yes! So many things.
As homeschool moms, I think we often forget the pressures our oldest homeschoolers have carried on their homeschoolers. They are our guinea pigs. The ones we tried everything out on. And sometimes, I just want to tell them I’m sorry.
To my oldest homeschooler,
I remember our first year of homeschooling. Oh, there were so many tears. There were struggles There was wondering if I was doing this thing right.
I remember pushing you, knowing that I needed to show all those doubters I was wrong.
I know I have tried out numerous curriculums with you trying to find the right fit.
You were my guinea pig. The one I used to find my teaching style, my preferred homeschool method, and homeschool mom groove.
You have experienced the best and worst of our homeschool days. You were the one I homeschooled before I realized Kindergarten should be more fun and fewer textbooks. I became more relaxed BECAUSE I learned from you. Yet, you experienced very little of my more relaxed method of homeschooling.
But, dear oldest homeschooler you were also the one who taught me the most. Through you, I learned about all the benefits of homeschooling.
You were the first one I taught to read. And OH I can still remember the way your eyes lit up.
You were the one who made me realize we could do this crazy thing called homeschooling.
It was you who told me that you missed being home and “doing school” with me.
It was you who made me realize families didn’t have to be separated every day just to learn.
You were the one who made me fall in love with homeschooling.
I experienced our first homeschool field trip, first homeschool day, first homeschool failure, and first homeschool success with YOU. You were my first born and my first homeschooler. And while I am sorry I have failed you in some ways, I am so glad I am able to experience this homeschool journey with you!
What would you tell your oldest homeschooler?
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